Creativity

Where are my friends, does that matter, I feel abandoned, why am I eating so crappy, I never use that word, corruptible, I have been unemployed for the last month or longer, I am not even sure why I was fired from the school, why was I removed from dishwashing, was it my fault, nobody has the time, can I still be friendly in the mist of such pain, can I be creative, on this eve of new opportunity?